I was listening to the radio while running out to get lunch today and the DJ asked, “Everyone has that day, that moment. Everyone has that moment where they just know that this whole ‘God’ thing is real. What was your moment?” And then they played this song by Britt Nicole. It struck me and brought me to tears. My moment was in 2008. I had been brought up a Christian and attended church most... Sundays with my family well into my teens. Then I went to college, got married, had kids, and drifted away from my faith. I had a sea of people in my life constantly telling me their beliefs and why God didn’t exist or why they didn’t believe. I was so naïve and gullible that I started doubting my faith as well. I had seen no real proof that God existed, so how could he? Then, Mitch got sick. I remember sitting at a stop light with my Dad one day after leaving the hospital. I asked Dad, “If there is a God, how can he do this to us?” My dad is not the most eloquently spoken man and it’s rare that he says something that really speaks to me, but this time, he did. He said, “All I can do is have faith that God has a plan that is bigger than us. That we are not meant to understand. That there is a purpose for all of this far beyond our understanding.” As the tears stung my eyes, I knew he was right. A few days later, Mitch died. After several hours of crying, hugging, praying, and saying goodbye, I left the hospital through the back entrance, on my own. I walked out the door and the sunshine warmed my cheeks and the breeze picked up and gently blew my hair off of my shoulders. That was it. That was my moment. I could literally feel God in my heart, telling me that he was there, that he had always been there, and that he would comfort me and see me through. A few years passed and I continued to fight my faith, but I never forgot that moment. And now, God’s presence has become so powerful in my life that it has taken over, and I have surrendered my will to Him. I am so very blessed and thankful every day for the path God has chosen for me. I feel reborn every single day
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