Dear Hinkle Creek Friends,
I miss all of you. I miss the Sunday's that I spent with my Grandma Pat and Grandpa Fred so that I knew I would be able to make it to church, or at the least Bible Study. I miss being around all of my good friends; the ones my age and the ones older than I. In other words, I miss everyone. I miss hearing the sermons on Sunday morning. I miss our worship service, hearing us all sing untill our lungs busted. I miss hearing Geneva's whistling. I miss hearing Paulette sing so sweetly. I miss hearing Jeff sing oh so loudly. I miss the Bible Studies. I miss having fellowship with all of you durring the week. I miss having the extra support by you all. I miss knowing that when I had a hard time, I atleast had the prayers of my church family. I miss knowing that someone, unrelated, cared for me. I miss having the love from all of you, and being able to return that love face-to-face on Sunday morning. I miss it all. I just want all of you to know that I am still praying that one of these days I will be able to return to my church, Hinkle Creek Friends, on a regular basis. I continue to think of all of you and worry about all of you. I am still a Christian, atleast from what I can tell. I often wander if I am still a Christian in the eyes of teh Church of God. I havent been in a church for quite some time. I often catch myslef slipping into the ways of the Public School. Believe me, it is extremely hard being a Christian in a Public School. There are all kinds of cruel rumors that cirle all around about the most horrible things. You woldn't believ the things that have been said to me. I have been threatend, humiliated, and criticised all because of my Faith in Jesus. I recently did a survey at Tipton and found that only 2 out of every 5 students admits to have Faith in Jesus. That is horrible. Worst of all, in my oppinion, I am getting sucked deeper and deeper every day. PLease pray for me. Also, I would liek to appologize. The last month or so in summer when I didn't come to church, it wasnt because I couldn't make it, but it was because I felt some kind of barrier between me and all of you. I am sorry if I have done anything wrong offend or hurt any of you at all. So, when I first felt that I decided to avoid church. However, now that I am gone, I realize how important that church actually was to me. I pray everyday that God will allow me to return. I have cried often because I feel all alone. I don't live in a "Christian" home, so I am always slipping and comming back up again to God. but it gets harder and harder each time and Hinkle was my refuge. I miss you all so very much. I have often thought, "what have I done to deserve loosing my best friends and family in the whole world?" I feel like I have done this to myself. So, please pray that I will be able to return. Please pray that I will not slip but rather be stronger in His truth. I am crying as I write this letter, so please call on God! I love all of you with every bit of my heart.
Love,
Jaxon McKinley
5 comments:
Oh Jaxon!!! Don't ever think you have done anything wrong and that we think less of you!!! We love you too and miss you very much. Sometimes, God puts us through tests and I believe this is a test for you. He has NEVER taken his eye off of you and because you asked Him to come into your life and be Lord of your life, you ARE a Christian and you are His adopted child. He is your Parent and a true Parent does not abandoned their child. As you were crying while writing this, God felt your tears and He loves you even deeper for that wonderful conscience that you have. Just keep focused on Him and continue to read your Bible so that His Word is in your heart and you will find strength to endure this test! You know what? You are going to pass!!! I can see through this writing that you already have come a long way and you are being refined through it all. We miss you too! I for one will continue to pray for you, so just know that you have me and Paulette, and many others standing in the background lifting you in prayer! Bev Stewart wrote me and read your blog and wanted you to know that she cares so VERY much for you and prays for you as well. You ARE part of this Family of God whether you are here or absent. I look forward to you coming back when you can and it will be a great reunion! I think we learn through these times that we appreciate even more what we had when it's not there anymore. That's part of the test. God tested many people throughout the Bible and as far as I can tell - THEY ALL PASSED!!! You will too!!
We love you and never forget that!
Bob
Jaxon, Christians have been persecuted throughout time, You aren't the first and you wont be the last , so don'y play into their hands ,you just keep doing what you have always done. Like Pastor Bob said your Church family LOVES you,and never forget that. Hope to see you in Church Sunday.
Jaxon,
This makes you coming to camp so much sweeter. You will be around your church family and back to the place you went this summer that you felt so connected.
Looking forward to seeing you this weekend.
Love
The Brownings
Dear Jaxon, what a beautiful thing you have done here. Speaking your heart in this way is so healing. I have missed the last two Sundays of Church and miss it so much. So you were speaking my heart as well. You will be on my prayer list until I see you again. Stay close to God. Keep calling out to him. When I am scared I just repeat the Lords Prayer to myself until I settle down a little. God is so faithful Jaxon.
And THANK YOU for writing this post. I'm so glad you did.
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